“What do you want from life?” Asked Samir.
“I don’t know.” Shrugged Riya. “I truly don’t know. May be some happiness??”
“So, you are not happy??”
“I don’t know Samir. I’m happy. But not the right amount of happy.”
“Right amount??” Smirked Samir.
“Hmm..it’s difficult to explain. It’s like, something is missing. And I don’t know what exactly is missing.”
“You have a beautiful life. Isn’t it?? A beautiful home, a career to die for, and the best person in the whole wide world as your husband.” He said with a boastful grin.
“Whole wide world?? Isn’t that too much?? Don’t think so highly of yourself.”
“So, you mean, I’m not the best??”
“You are. But..”
“What but?? What else do you need in life to make you happy?? People who know you, are actually jealous of you.”
“Nah!! No one is..or may be few are.. but, still Samir…there’s something missing. I don’t know. I want some thrill. Life’s gotten to busy and boring. A thrill would be nice..My life is no more challenging. People have to deal with so many challenges, struggles, and I get everything so easy. It’s like, things have been readymade for me. Let’s forget it.”
“You are nuts Riya. Simply nuts.”
A week later. Samir’s phone beeped.
An incoming message fm an unknown number, “Meet me at 5.” Read Riya.
She didn’t pay a heed. Got ready. And both left for work. Samir dropped Riya to her office.
Next morning. Incoming msg fm Jas.
“When shall me meet today?”
Next few mornings, Jas continued with the messages. “Loved it yesterday.”
“Let’s meet over tea.” Sometimes coffee.
Riya, trusted Samir. But somewhere down, she felt anxious. She wanted to know who this Jas was.
She had no intentions of following Samir. But that morning, the message, read;
“The best date ever. Thanks.”
This was it. The last straw.
She left her office early. Her heart was beating faster than usual.
What if, Samir is having an affair?? What if, she sees Samir with another girl?? What will she do?? She wanted to turn back.
But, how could Samir do this to her?? There was no change in his behaviour towards her. They were as lovey-dovey, as before. But, these messages, had a different story to tell.
She was standing outside “The Cafe 3/4th”
She peeked in. Yes, Samir was there. But with a man. They were talking over something. She hurried back, before Samir could see her.
She was happy that it wasn’t a girl. She had expected one. A sigh of relief. But it didn’t last for long.
“What if, Samir is gay??”
They have known each other for long. But history suggests that many men hide their true identities to avoid defamation. But, their conjugal life was great.
Then why would Samir keep meeting this guy over coffee??
She wanted to ask Samir, but resisted herself.
Next morning. The phone beeped yet again.
And before Riya could take a peek, Samir rushed towards it. He had a smile on his face. The smile reminded her of something.
Their initial courting phase. Samir had the same smile, the same, as before.
Riya’s heart couldn’t take it anymore. She felt suffocated.
“Who is it??” She asked.
“Someone from work.” Samir replied with his charming smile.
Riya didn’t like it at all..
She couldn’t concentrate in office. She started imagining all sorts of things. Samir with that guy. Samir leaving her. Getting married to Jas. And what not.
That night, she thought of confronting Samir.
“Samir, I wanted to talk to you about something. I mean Jas.”
“So, you know?? I knew I couldn’t hide it for long. I’m sorry, I should have told you.”
“Tell me now. I’m totally shocked Samir. I mean, what’s going on between the two of you. I’m sorry, but I hv seen few of your texts.”
“I wanted to tell you long time ago..but didn’t have the courage to do so. In fact, I was sure, I couldn’t hide this from you any more. I’m sorry, that it had to come out this way. I’m…I’m…”
Before he could complete, Riya spoke..”GAY?”
“Gay?? What gay??”
“You are gay Samir. It’s okay. You wanted to come out. But then, why did you love me or marry me?? Do you really love me?? Or is this all fake??” Riya burst into tears.
“Riya..Stop crying. Why the hell did you think I’m gay?? Or in love with a guy?? I’m perfectly straight and I love you like crazy.”
“But…but…the coffee dates??The messages?? What about those??”
“Remember my best friend, Vihaan?? A few weeks ago, he came out. He is gay. He has been struggling a lot from few years. No one noticed. He was on the verge of committing suicide. Thankfully, he opened up to me. JAS is a co-worker, Jaswinder?? Remember him??”
“Oh ! God, Jas is Jasminder?? But, I couldn’t recognise him at the cafe that day.”
“Have you been spying on me??”
“No..I mean yes..but, Sorry. Plz tell me the whole thing.”
“Riya?? How could you?? Anyways, will deal with this later. Jas has always been very open about his preferences. I knew he was looking for a partner. So, I took the opportunity and introduced him to Vihaan. And viola!! They connected. So, Jas threw a party in my honour, that day. If you would have waited a bit longer, you would have seen Vihaan too. But you had to have everything your way. How could you Riya?? How could you??”
“I’m sorry. You smiled that day..and that smile was so, like the smile, when we used to date. I got confused. And the messengers…oh!! I’m so sorry Samir. Please forgive me.”
“On one condition..Next time, if you are in doubt, ask me immediately. Don’t wait for the problem to brew in your head.”
“There won’t be a next time Samir.”
A few weeks later.
“So, are you still missing something in your life?? The thrill??”
“I had the thrill of my life. Believe me, I’m feeling blessed to have you. My life is all good. Don’t want any more thrills.”
Samir’s phone beeped. He had the same smile, the charming smile….
AND THE THRILL CONTINUES….